Excited and Terrified
I have a date Saturday… I can’t begin to tell how weird that feels. And how excited I am that someone wants to spend time with me. And how terrified I am. I can’t help but worry about everything. What do you do on a date? The last date I had (not counting the accidental date I went on in November) was in 1995… I was 20… It turned into an overnight… And I basically moved in a week later… And before that I really hadn’t had a relationship longer than 3 weeks, I had concentrated on school, maybe gone on dates with 3 boys in my life. I know, that sounds pathetic, and if I have anything to say about my daughters love life I’ll make them have many more than that before settling down.
To be honest this person is the complete opposite of what I’m what I’ve always thought I was looking for, of how I’ve lived my life. But I really look forward to getting to know him better.
But I can’t help but wonder, am I so excited because this is the first person to show an interest in me in a long time or is it because I find him attractive? Not a very flattering thought but I’m being honest here! Any advice would be greatly appreciated! Do I tell him I’m terrified? Of how inexperienced I am in dating? I’m guessing no… Not really a turn-on for someone.
Background: I met him at a meditation group on Sunday. We started talking as soon as I got there and when we left he asked if I wanted to see him again.
So details: We are going on a walk in a park and then out for drinks/dinner. Should I give him a hug when we meet? Kiss at the end? More? I guess only time will tell…