Alone but Strong

Single mother of two beautiful girls trying to rebuild my life. One day at a time.

Author Archive: maria5125

Cold Feet

I have realized that the biggest problem in my relationship with S is me… I’m terrified of being hurt again so I’m trying to make up reasons why I would be better off alone. He has given me absolutely no reason to not trust him. If we are together and he gets a text from …

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Calm

It’s been a little scary lately, my ex has been very nice and agreeable. If it was any other person I would be thrilled, but it makes me wonder what is he planning? What is his agenda? One example, he’s let me drop the girls off at his office instead of his new house, saving …

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Phantom Limb – I swear it’s right there

I was reading this post today and though I don’t feel that urge to share with my ex any longer, I got reminded about it this weekend. I was out with the man I’ve been dating for the past 3 months and we met a trainer at the gym where both I and his ex …

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Why Does It Have To Be So Hard?

It’s been almost two weeks and nothing has been decided. There has been a few e-mails back and forth but he takes his time between every single one of them. We are now trying to agree on dates moving forward based on the current parenting agreement since we have nothing decided after August 25. The …

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Here We Go Again

So before our trip, things blew up with my ex regarding parenting time for the future, you can read more about it here. So after we came back I sent an e-mail on Monday July 22 asking when he would be available for mediation so that I can set it up. No answer. Monday August …

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Summer Is Flying By

I can’t believe that it is almost August. I don’t know what happened to July, it went by so fast. Here is a quick update on July. The remainder of our trip was good. I loved spending time with one of my best friend’s for the last three days. My girls got to play with …

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One Year Anniversary

Happy one year anniversary to this blog! I’d like to thank everyone for reading and commenting. It’s amazing what a difference a year can make. I am so much happier and in such a wonderful place right now that I feel like thanking my ex husband for wanting out. It was a toxic relationship and …

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Parents

What is it about parents and their ability to drive you crazy?! I’ve been home for 1.5 weeks now and my mom has made sure that we do everything together so far. And for the rest of the 1.5 weeks she’s nestled her way into most of it. An example, me and my daughters are …

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First Half of Our Trip

I can’t believe that we are already half way through our trip. I’ve had time to see friends, favorite cousins, the house I grew up in, the house my dad grew up in, re-live a lot of childhood memories. I’m writing this in what used to be my grandmother’s kitchen. My parents decided to keep …

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Jet Lag

After a very long day/night we finally arrived yesterday morning at my parents house in Sweden. The only stress factor was the ride to the airport. My friend picked us up with what should have been plenty of time to make it to the airport. It normally takes 1 h 40 min, Tuesday it took …

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